Why I Run – Dom’s story (video)

Why do you run? Dom just ran in the 2016 Baltimore Marathon – his 2nd. He’s in recovery from multiple chemical addictions, and he considers running his new, healthy addiction. Watch Dom run along the Baltimore waterfront while listening to his powerful spoken-word piece, “Endurance.”

 

 

"I love running. But a year ago, I weighed 370. I couldn't lay on my back without choking, waking up in the middle of the night trying to catch my breath… That was when I hit my lowest point. The hardest thing for me to deal with was the embarrassment of knowing that a couple of years before, I was really in shape, and I'd actually run a marathon. How did I just run a marathon, and now I can hardly breathe when I'm laying on my back? I came in to Helping Up Mission a year ago, and I'm currently 239 pounds. I run with Back On My Feet. When I rejoined them in 2016, it was like learning how to ride a bike all over again. But as time went on, as each run passed, I said 'I can do this!' Running gives you endurance. When I relapsed, I didn't think I had the endurance to get up again and try to get clean and sober and get my life back together. I run to build endurance through life's struggles." —————- Dom, 341 days #clean and #sober, ran his second marathon in the @baltrunfest on Saturday! Running with @bomfbaltimore has been a huge part of his #recovery. Check out our video of Dom at the link in our profile #soberlife #runhappy #brf #baltimorerunningfestival #baltimoremarathon #marathontraining #marathontraining2016 #longrun #runner #wednesday #sobermovement #runnerslife #igrunners #wisdomwednesday #runalways #charmcityrun #charmcity #runnerscommunity #baltimore #onedayatatime #sobrietyrocks #rehab #12steps #addiction #relapse #wednesdaywisdom

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“My Life Story” – recovery rap (video)

For years, men in the addiction recovery program at Helping Up Mission have written poetry as a part of their recovery process. Now, they have gathered, edited, and published a sampling of their writings as a book: War of Grace: Poems from the Front Lines of Recovery. This video was produced in collaboration with the amazing team at Mozell Films.

You can download the ebook and audiobook: free of charge, at:
http://noisetrade.com/helpingupmission/war-of-grace-poetry

Josh’s rap about addiction (video)

Josh’s rap about addiction and recovery:

“And I can share with you the struggles of my heart
And how I’m swimming with the fishes but was living with the sharks
Listen, I was able to see the lining only because it was dark
Witness, your sister trickin’ just to get a hit of the hard
While me sittin’ indifferent hittin’ licks in my car
Drinking liquor as I wither just to get to tomorrow
My system’s quickly gettin’ sicker so I’m breakin’ some laws
And if it’s money I can’t deliver then I’m ticking ’em off

“Yeah I may get jumped, hit in the jaw, and tossed to the dogs
But I got high so I couldn’t even call it a loss
I would sneak into my little brother’s room while he was sleeping and all
And I’m racing to ATMs and I’m replacing his card
And he was planning to join the Army or the National Guard
Yeah I been hurt but it was me who was leaving the scars
But I’m ripping out the stitches and I’m keepin’ the gauze
For the still-suffering addict and it’s all for the cause

“To keep it you’ve gotta give it
To preach it you have to live it
To beat it you have to witness
And see it through the vision of the victim in addiction
In order to make provisions

“Baltimore, 410, that’s my area code and that’s all I know
I’m from the land where the spring brings snow
It’s Joshua, as in Jericho
Man, let the curtain close”

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For years, men in the addiction recovery program at Helping Up Mission have written poetry as a part of their recovery process. Now, they have gathered, edited, and published a sampling of their writings as a book: War of Grace: Poems from the Front Lines of Recovery.

You can download the ebook and audiobook: free of charge, at:
http://noisetrade.com/helpingupmission/war-of-grace-poetry

Guilt Quilt (poem video)

Guilt Quilt
by Greg L

It keeps in the cold and shuts everyone out
Alone with my anguish, self loathing, and doubt
Scraps of sorrow, remnants of shame
Shredded ambitions, knots tied with pain
Folded up neatly and placed on the shelf
I pull it down daily to hide from myself

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For years, men in the addiction recovery program at Helping Up Mission have written poetry as a part of their recovery process. Now, they have gathered, edited, and published a sampling of their writings as a book: War of Grace: Poems from the Front Lines of Recovery.

You can download the ebook and audiobook: free of charge, at:
http://noisetrade.com/helpingupmission/war-of-grace-poetry

What Have I Lost (poem video)

What Have I Lost?
by Phil H

A loss in sense of being
What was I to do?
A loss of all I stood for
A loss of God knows who

Is there much missed out on?
Much I couldn’t know?
Is there really anything gone
Or gained which I could show?

A loss of who I wasn’t
A loss of who I was
A loss which I just couldn’t
Accept to be the cause

What am I to stand for?
What things have I still kept?
A loss I’d understand more
If I knew those things still left

My skull has lost some pieces
My back has lost some skin
Though my head has gained a thesis
On the things I could begin

My feet were torn to shreds
Slowly skin grows back
But know inside my head
Is what I’ve gained, not what I lack

To gain a brand new person
A person I could love
This is what I’m learning
Much respect for up above

To gain a brand new wisdom
Of a person learned to be
I guess I shouldn’t miss him
‘Cause that person wasn’t me.

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For years, men in the addiction recovery program at Helping Up Mission have written poetry as a part of their recovery process. Now, they have gathered, edited, and published a sampling of their writings as a book: War of Grace: Poems from the Front Lines of Recovery. This video was produced in collaboration with the amazing team at Mozell Films.

You can download the ebook and audiobook: free of charge, at:
http://noisetrade.com/helpingupmission/war-of-grace-poetry

The Break Up (poem video)

The Break Up
by Harold Duppins

There was a time that we were inseparable
My love for you was such that I couldn’t live without you
I cherished you with all my time, all my willingness
I was so obsessed with you
That I was blinded by my own lust
Tortured by an uncontrollable need
To always have you near

I clung to you like a child with a new toy
Never wanting to let you go
Never wanting you out of my life
My heart and my mind was a batch of emotions
Thrown together in a mass of confusion

My eyes slowly became open
And I could see the reality of you
I could see the false love, the false passion
That captured me like a young lion
That strayed away from his mother

The more I saw less of you, the less I needed you
You can no longer seduce me
Nor tempt me with your deadly passions
I will no longer search for you
Nor call out to you in the middle of the night

I will not be persuaded by memories of past love for you
Our relationship has come to its end
I have a new love who is faithful and loving to me
She will not invade my heart with false hopes
Her name is Sobriety

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For years, men in the addiction recovery program at Helping Up Mission have written poetry as a part of their recovery process. Now, they have gathered, edited, and published a sampling of their writings as a book: War of Grace: Poems from the Front Lines of Recovery. This video was produced in collaboration with the amazing team at Mozell Films.

You can download the ebook and audiobook: free of charge, at:
http://noisetrade.com/helpingupmission/war-of-grace-poetry

Defined (video)

Shame: we’ve all experienced it. How would you define it? And how can we move beyond it?

Watch as recovering addicts give brutally honest definitions of shame, vulnerability, and hope – showing how the path from shame to hope leads through vulnerability, not around it.

Produced in collaboration with Mozell Films.

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Confessions of Former Panhandlers (Video)

Have you ever wondered what it’s like to be a panhandler?
We interviewed 4 former panhandlers (HUM clients and graduates) about their old lives, covering 10 questions:

1. How’d you get into panhandling?

2. What surprised you about panhandling?

3. What did your typical day look like?

4. How much money did you make?

5. How did you spend the money?

6. How did people respond to you?

7. What was your most memorable conversation?

8. Is employment the answer?

9. When did you stop panhandling?

10. What’s your advice for someone who wants to help?

Two links for easy sharing:

The video playlist: helpum.org/panhandlerconfessions

A printable street resource card: helpum.org/streetcard