This month, 30 of our clients took to the river in canoes and kayaks. Together we cleared over 900 pounds of trash from the banks of the Patapsco near Middle Branch Park!
Thanks to Baltimore City Parks and Rec for facilitating this adventure. Learn more at: bcrp.baltimorecity.gov/recreation/outdoor
“Here’s something I wrote that was inspired by the 12 Steps:
Is at the heart of my insanity
The illusion of control is like speaking profanity
Is the way I react to the past
Reliving the moment
Don’t tell, don’t ask
Is the way that I deal with the present
A denial of reality
The consciousness of presence
Is what I feel when I start to think
Creating an illusion
And I start to sink
Six foot deep, and my eyes go blank
The Titanic’s going down but I don’t even faint
Running away from self-conscious
Is a terrible waste
Seared deeper and deeper
At a constant pace
Is the motivator I use to get high
‘Cause when the tough gets going
I get gone, goodbye
My approach to the disease of addiction
Is completely realistic
Thoroughly follow the path
Or become a statistic
I have a choice over impulsive thinking
Stop and say no to compulsive drinking
So I had to find a new way to live
Is the feeling I experience
For the things that I did
Is Hearing Other People’s Experience
Like nitrous oxide
Too fast, too furious
Is that fixed idea that takes me back
Down memory lane
Or something like that
To recapture the ease and comfort I once knew
Quoting “pour me a drink – I’m feeling kinda blue”
So what do I do?
Relapse and get twisted
“Keep it simple, stupid”
My sponsor insisted
“Don’t get ahead of yourself”
“One day at a time”
When at the end of the road
What did you find?
Until I got clean with a simple solution
Also a plan of action that really works
It’s called 12 Steps for crash dummy jerks
So my troubles, I think
Are basically my own making
They rise out of self
The self-obsessed nature”
The NA pamphlet The Triangle of Self-Obsession was a specific inspiration for this poet.
For more poetry from our men, check out our Poetry page.
The Appalachian Trail
We went on a two-day wilderness retreat with 10 HUM clients and 5 men from St. Mo’s Church. Together we walked and talked the 17 miles of the Appalachian Trail that end in Harper’s Ferry, WV.
Video edited by HUM client Ashanti.
As we have each spring and fall for the past several years, we took two groups of 40 men to Camp Wabanna in Edgewater, Maryland, for an overnight retreat experience.
Day 1 photos by HUM client Jesse.
Day 2 photos by HUM client Ashanti.